Wow that sounded like i’m empty inside or something. No I just got tired of all of these pricks constantly being prejudice about everything, just everything and everyone. So i thought i’d read it along with the other 3 or 4 books I’m reading that I shouldn’t be. You know i’m very interested in other cultures and their history and it pisses me off when people comment badly about something they are very unfamiliar about so instead of cursing them out i just look at them funny, and go inform myself. It’s a lengthy task I will say but I’ve enjoyed it so far.
I know what you’re really thinking though right now -
“ Z where’ve you been man?! i sent you an email a month ago wtf”
Well idk man i think I just don’t know, you know I get sucked into things and it’s just over for me at that point. One thing that sucks about me is that I can’t just “like” something I have to completely and constantly and deeply LOVE it. It’s super annoying. I guess what i’m trying to say is that these past few months have been weird for me, i’ve been avoiding ppl and just doing hmw and reading and studying random things haha. Taking time to “reflect” or whatever.
Also one of the things I “fell in love with” I just kind of started getting over and ugh that just devastated me because i really thought I would like it forever and ever, but instead it only showed me just how fickle I am.
“wtf are you talking about Z?”
ehem- nothing. Anyway I finally visited Key West a few weeks back. It was definitely interesting, a lot of people I know would constantly mention it and would say something along the lines of - “go or die”
just kidding no they would just tell me I should go and see it for myself. Well I have to say that I liked it but there’s no way in hell i’m going back haha. I went snorkeling while I was there and it was fun and freaky ‘cause I don’t like the thought of live fish touching me and that definitely happened. eewww. I also took a lot of pictures of roosters and chickens ‘cause that’s the population of key west with the most color… I had a lot of seafood that was delicious too, just thinking about it- AH so good. I stayed by the historic district and maybe i had too much bubbly but I don’t remember seeing Hemingway’s house, not even once I don’t think. I know I passed by it at some point but I don’t remember really seeing it. I never liked his books by the way so it’s not like i feel really bad about not seeing his house it just bothers me that my eyes might not work or something. There were a lot of crossdressers so I think they were just distracting to me that’s all. Someone I know gave me some pointers as what to do and where to go in Key West, so thank you. I did not do everything on the list but it was definitely helpful.
I also recently watched Padmaavat, it’s a fairly new Bollywood film. eh I kinda stopped watching anything really for a while, the tv just bores me to hell! A few nights ago though I decided to watch a movie and luckily Padmaavat was free on Amazon so I watched it and OH MY it was so good, the homo-eroticism of the film rekindled my interest in Bollywood films and so I’ve made it a point to watch more of them now…again. Not saying Bollywood films are homoerotic just that I see it in everything…and everywhere. ah the joys of life.
Right now I’m just waiting on a few things and it’s soooo frustrating, I can’t describe the torture of “the wait” as I like to call it. The semester is almost over though so I’m happy about that BUT I have more semesters to go. AH WHYYY! I’ll be happy to take a break though this May, which is my b-day month. I celebrate my birthday for a whole month just by the way (insert evil laugh here).
I’ll be turning TWENTY SEVEN in a few weeks so I’ll be happy to spend a little bit of time in NM and Cali visiting friends and family. Time just flies by doesn’t it, it’s good though.
Also lateIy I started listening to a lot of Raags, i don’t know how to explain Raag, it’s like a melody or something. It’s sort of like Indian classical music…kinda maybe sorta. Just take my word for it ‘k. it’s good music though it calms me down, actually now i’m too calm because of it. damn.
I only know how to head-bang too so i head-bang to Raag music as well, it’s kinda awkward but what am i to do right? There’s this song I keep listening to - I’m actually listenin’ to it right now - it’s called Eree aali piyabin by Abida Parveen. It’s a cover but I def love it, oh no… I might be obsessed now…here we go again.